This is really hard for me share…I’ve held my finger on the publish button for a very long time.

Now that you’re reading this, I decided to open up about some things that I’ve been going through.

I’ve been having a few challenges lately and it feels like I’m going through a new transition in my life.

I’ve had some breakdowns as of late and I know they are opening up space for a major breakthrough.

In these moments of despair,

I looked deep within to find out why I have not been feeling like myself.

One thing that keeps coming up is my desire to have my own family and to experience fatherhood.

I know that this is the next step in my life.

I’ve also become aware of the changes I need to make within myself in order to deserve such a precious gift.

Lately, a few items came to the surface in which I need to work on

and it’s not something that I’ve shared publicly,

So I followed my intuition and went to work on the things I needed to clean up.

Mostly, getting closer to my own family and focusing on more love and contribution towards the people in my life.

At first, things seemed to go great.

I was feeling energized and excited as I started making the changes that I’ve been putting off for so long.

I was proud of myself because I these are things I’ve been meaning to do

and I was now taking the appropriate actions.

However, I was held back by a lot of inner resistance.

It was as though a part of me did not want to

evolve to my next level.

As I was making positive changes,

I constantly saw some of my old patterns coming to the surface.

This all happened over the past few weeks.

I began to regress back to my old ways with excessive drinking and using different substances to numb my mind.

I felt myself getting into similar patterns of when I was younger and self medicating with hardcore drugs that almost killed me.

I continued to rationalize my behavior, then went to the extreme,

and by doing that,

I lost myself and my entire world came crumbling down.

It was as if I lost my grip on life

and I forgot who I was.

I got mad at myself, because after all these years of personal growth and enjoying sobriety

I became unconscious and slipped back into my old ways of self medicating to heal my pain.

All in all,

I just wanted to do the right thing and become a better person.

However by being pulled back to my old ways,

I crumbled.

I soon realized that although I took major steps forward in my life,

I took a giant step backwards too.

I broke down.

And I hit rockbottom.

At that point,

I realized that this is something that is not going to happen easily.

I understand that nothing worthwhile comes easily

to anyone in life.

Rather than me just sharing a struggle that I’m having,

I also want to share a solution that we could both take away.

Often our hearts are pulled towards certain desires.

Many times, we don’t know the exact reason

and we don’t know the exact challenges that will come in the way on the path to becoming a better person.

Believe me,

when you’re wanting something so badly with your heart,

you end up receiving challenges that are difficult to see how badly you want it.

You must realize that by overcoming these challenges,

you will Rise Above

and get to the place you need to be.

By elevating yourself

you will evolve to become the person you need to be.

These are the things that form your new identity;

because once you grow into that next level version of yourself,

only then will you deserve the prize that awaits you.

I am now realizing how important it is for me to become a better man,

and this road is difficult for many reasons.

A major part of me becoming the man I need to be

is to operate with full authenticity.

For me to relapse into excessive drinking and taking drugs to numb myself was a major blow to all that I have worked on.

And it brought me to my knees.

This is why I feel the need to share this with you.

And to also to make you realize that now matter how clean and polished we portray ourselves

we are all fighting a battle that nobody else knows about.

This is a part of life.

No matter where you are in life,

the challenges and struggles you face will never ever go away.

So rather than not wanting them exist,

You begin to welcome each set back as a way to growing into a

better version of yourself.

So today I am asking for you to share something you’re going through.

Open up your heart, express what you feel.

It does not have to be publicly on social media like I’m doing now.

Even if you call a close friend and vent about a challenge you are facing.

It begin the healing process that will make you better.

Remember, to Never worry alone.

It’s okay to ask for help,

because we’re all going through something in one way or another.

And moving forward,

I’m going to ask for more help like I’m doing right now.

I’ve come to realize that Vulnerability is True Strength.

I am not perfect by any means and I am not afraid to admit it.

That being said,

I urge you to Communicate.

Even when it’s difficult.

If you want to Heal,

Express how you feel…

- I Appreciate You.

Losing yourself can feel terrible because you lose grip of what is certain.

But sometimes you must Lose Yourself to Find yourself.

And it’s not that you get lost,

in reality,

you lose the parts of yourself

that no longer serve you.

The true essence of You remains

and when you go into your heart

you are reminded of Who You Truly are.

It is your mind makes you feel like you lost something.

It becomes a chaotic place

and it creates a world of overthinking

But sometimes,

overthinking is what you need.

Because when you become comfortable with uncertainty

infinite possibilities open up in your life.

And when you are in this uncertain place

where it is easy to get lost,

You eventually realize that it always happens to help you.

It helps you find your way back

to what is really important.

And this Awareness is Key

because it always brings you back to what truly matters.

And what truly matters can Never be lost.

You are always brought back to your heart which is your Center

and where the True You resides.

And every time you find your way back

from the depths of uncertainty.

The easier it is to go back home to your heart

and remember what made you lost in the first place.

When you are back in your heart

you realize that everything that you thought

made you lost was all an illusion.

The more often you go back to your heart

to escape the chaos and uncertainty.

The more often you operate from your true essence,

which is a beautiful place where life flows with ease.

In this beautiful place, you are unaffected by anything

that changes externally.

Because internally you are peaceful whole and complete.

You are more than enough

and you realize that All that you Need

is within you NOW.

When you find that you lost your way,

always remember that it is all an illusion.

Created by a chaotic mind that thinks too much.

So catch yourself,

when you are overthinking.

Take a moment

and Stop.

Close your eyes,

put your hand on your heart

to find your way back home.

I Guarantee you that it knows the way.

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